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mindless6410 @ 2009-06-10T00:22:00

2009-06-10T04:22:58Z

sorry, i didnt knowm there had to be an emergency to call you :(

mindless6410 @ 2009-05-07T00:38:00

2009-05-07T04:40:46Z

i should really should start writing my thoughts down
they my be a little too disturbing
to keep locked inside

mindless6410 @ 2009-04-29T16:35:00

2009-04-29T20:35:52Z

why does life still suck?
even when i am trying my hardest

mindless6410 @ 2009-04-21T11:32:00

2009-04-21T15:56:08Z

I'm sitting in the student center at school and I realize something. Everyone in this room is trying extremely hard. But what baffles me is who or what are this people trying to impress? I'm watching a flirtatious young lady in front of me. Her curly hair halos around an actually quite exquisite face, and she is absurdly and probably uncomfortably laughing at a thirty something year old man's jokes. Then there's the sign language major behind me, her hair is unnaturally blue and green with her blond roots growing as I speak. They say coloring your hair is a form of expressing your self. But wouldn't truly expressing yourself mean to keep your hair it's real color? Even the kid eating his sandwich in consciously taking small bites in order to assure him that nothing gets on his face, not that it would matter (he has a huge pile of napkins next to him) There are so many different types if people in this room but all with one common denominator, none of them are comfortable in their own skin. I don't think anyone is completely comfortable living. Humans are naturally and constantly awkward.

mindless6410 @ 2009-04-19T18:13:00

2009-04-19T22:31:17Z

if they say failure isn't an option,
how come it happens so often?

mindless6410 @ 2009-04-12T14:37:00

2009-04-12T18:38:02Z

i cant remember ever
wanting something this bad

mindless6410 @ 2009-04-02T11:16:00

2009-04-02T15:17:45Z

is life really that bad?

selfish

i miss elementary school

mindless6410 @ 2009-02-28T23:31:00

2009-03-01T04:31:55Z

i wish i couldnt feel

pride and prejudice

2009-02-18T03:33:08Z

everything must change
change is well reasoned
though quite unwanted
nothing will survive unchanged
friendships, thoughts, and the heart
are all changed throughout time

mindless6410 @ 2008-08-26T00:08:00

2008-08-26T04:10:15Z

i have a headache
andys asleep and snoring next to me

i miss this thing,
i miss you

mindless6410 @ 2008-01-15T11:10:00

2008-01-15T16:09:06Z

eh loosing friends is supposed to be depressing
why do i feel like i just cleaned my life up

...your a bitch end of story

mindless6410 @ 2007-08-31T21:22:00

2007-09-01T01:22:24Z

who wants to bang?

mindless6410 @ 2007-08-19T13:40:00

2007-08-19T18:41:07Z

TEXXASSSS

mindless6410 @ 2007-07-03T13:15:00

2007-07-03T17:16:03Z

mk im done

i dont want friends

i dont want to know anyone

i want to move away where i can be a completely different person

mindless6410 @ 2007-07-02T01:03:00

2007-07-02T05:05:03Z

if i loose one more fucking friend this summer

im leaving lakeorion

fuck overreacting.
fuck drama.
fuck taking things way too seriously.
fuck cunts.
fuck acting like everythings ok.
fuck me.
fuck bullshit.
fuck you.

mindless6410 @ 2007-06-20T04:11:00

2007-06-20T08:14:29Z

i just wanted to apologize pubically to all of my friends

i am sorry
if i have ditched you recently
been a bitch
or competely ignored you

i miss all of my friends i really do

jacky
kelsey
ashley
mallory
alot of others

you guys mean the world to me

i am officially sorry about the amount of time i spend with my boyfriend
its just that he makes me smile
and drama plain and simple doesnt come out of his mouth often

lets hang out
call my house
i lost my cell

2483932404

mindless6410 @ 2007-06-01T00:30:00

2007-06-01T04:31:12Z

hm

so i just puked blood

after having a ciggerate...

i dont know if it is because i am smoking too much?

is that a bad sign?

mindless6410 @ 2007-05-04T01:36:00

2007-05-04T05:37:08Z

best birth day of my whole life
bradley and jack made my whole day

too bad my so called bff since third grade
was a bitch to me all day
thank you
im done trying to be your friend

FUCK BITCHEZZ
GETT MONEY

PROM!

2007-05-01T00:26:06Z

my was perfect
soo glad i met bradley berchbach

mindless6410 @ 2007-04-24T20:51:00

2007-04-25T00:52:28Z

I never realized how much I miss the past until now.
I mean don't get me wrong,
right now life isn't as bad as it usually seems to be.
I have a wonderful boyfriend
and Jacky, Kelsey, Mallory, and occasionally Ashley
but I miss those lazy summer days.
I miss JACKS but hell that wont happen again.
no one really wants to make an effort to see each other anymore.
I miss Clare when she actually felt like being a friend
and talking to her about anything and getting make overs at K-mart.
I miss being best friends with Ashley Good.
I miss Corin Cassa and Timothy Peruzzi.
I miss Dani and Bob
I miss Brandon.
I miss a hell of a lot.
I guess we all just grew up.
I would kill to go back in time just so I could get that same feeling of happiness.
I never used to be so paranoid.
I get panic attacks almost everyday.
My therapist asked me what I am constantly worried about
and I realized I am terrified of growing up.
I am terrified of being alone.
I am going to be a senior next year.
Which means I have about roughly 2 years to grow up.
Most of my friends are really intelligent.
Their all going to go to college far away.
And, I just be here in Lake Orion, with no-one.
Jacky was in Arizona for 10 days.
I can't live without my best friend, I really truly cannot.
But, I can't rely on Jacky to stay here and take care of me.
I need to become more independent.
Hopefully, the upcoming summer will help me put away these thoughts for awhile.
Just So I can have some fun.
In fact, I hope I don't even remember half of the summer.

(i want back summer 2005 please)

mindless6410 @ 2007-04-01T18:28:00

2007-04-01T22:28:20Z

i have a prom date

with the boy of my dreams

mindless6410 @ 2007-03-01T15:47:00

2007-03-01T20:47:35Z

there just so much a girl can take in a day

HATE LIFE
HATE FRIENDSHIP
FUCK EVERYONE

mindless6410 @ 2007-02-26T20:27:00

2007-02-27T01:28:57Z

i used to have a best freind

since third grade to be tottaly honest

i said something i shouldnt have

and lied

but hell you would think that a fucking 7 year relationship

wouldnt change that

SORRY OK

mindless6410 @ 2007-02-07T11:55:00

2007-02-07T16:56:15Z

will someone be my valentine?

(i miss you AML, hushhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh)

mindless6410 @ 2007-01-28T17:23:00

2007-01-28T22:23:18Z

ive been thinking alot lately

about my first kiss

the first time i drank

the first time i ever got high

my first ciggerate

then i thought about how

i have alot more firsts coming up in my life

and it made me think real fast

and then i got paranoid

and just started crying

i kinda feel like my life isnt going anywhere

and the only thing to look forward to

is the next party

or the next time i'm high

or the next boy ill kiss

i look at other people and wonder if they feel they same as i do

i dont think any teenager is content with their life

but does anyone really feel like nothing will get better

does anybody just not wanna be around to find out

i dont know

i think something is really wrong with me

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK why do i miss him...
i miss homecoming 2005