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June 10th, 2009
12:22 am
sorry, i didnt knowm there had to be an emergency to call you :(
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May 7th, 2009
12:38 am
i should really should start writing my thoughts down
they my be a little too disturbing
to keep locked inside
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April 29th, 2009
04:35 pm
why does life still suck?
even when i am trying my hardest
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April 21st, 2009
11:32 am
I'm sitting in the student center at school and I realize something. Everyone in this room is trying extremely hard. But what baffles me is who or what are this people trying to impress? I'm watching a flirtatious young lady in front of me. Her curly hair halos around an actually quite exquisite face, and she is absurdly and probably uncomfortably laughing at a thirty something year old man's jokes. Then there's the sign language major behind me, her hair is unnaturally blue and green with her blond roots growing as I speak. They say coloring your hair is a form of expressing your self. But wouldn't truly expressing yourself mean to keep your hair it's real color? Even the kid eating his sandwich in consciously taking small bites in order to assure him that nothing gets on his face, not that it would matter (he has a huge pile of napkins next to him) There are so many different types if people in this room but all with one common denominator, none of them are comfortable in their own skin. I don't think anyone is completely comfortable living. Humans are naturally and constantly awkward.
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April 19th, 2009
06:13 pm
if they say failure isn't an option,
how come it happens so often?
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April 12th, 2009
02:37 pm
i cant remember ever
wanting something this bad
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April 2nd, 2009
11:16 am
is life really that bad?
selfish
i miss elementary school
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February 28th, 2009
11:31 pm
i wish i couldnt feel
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February 17th, 2009
10:30 pm - pride and prejudice
everything must change
change is well reasoned
though quite unwanted
nothing will survive unchanged
friendships, thoughts, and the heart
are all changed throughout time
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August 26th, 2008
12:08 am
i have a headache
andys asleep and snoring next to me
i miss this thing,
i miss you
Current Location: leather couch
Current Music: tim allen
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January 15th, 2008
11:10 am
eh loosing friends is supposed to be depressing
why do i feel like i just cleaned my life up
...your a bitch end of story
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August 31st, 2007
09:22 pm
who wants to bang?
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August 19th, 2007
July 3rd, 2007
01:15 pm
mk im done
i dont want friends
i dont want to know anyone
i want to move away where i can be a completely different person
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July 2nd, 2007
01:03 am
if i loose one more fucking friend this summer
im leaving lakeorion
fuck overreacting.
fuck drama.
fuck taking things way too seriously.
fuck cunts.
fuck acting like everythings ok.
fuck me.
fuck bullshit.
fuck you.
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June 20th, 2007
04:11 am
i just wanted to apologize pubically to all of my friends
i am sorry
if i have ditched you recently
been a bitch
or competely ignored you
i miss all of my friends i really do
jacky
kelsey
ashley
mallory
alot of others
you guys mean the world to me
i am officially sorry about the amount of time i spend with my boyfriend
its just that he makes me smile
and drama plain and simple doesnt come out of his mouth often
lets hang out
call my house
i lost my cell
2483932404
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June 1st, 2007
12:30 am
hm
so i just puked blood
after having a ciggerate...
i dont know if it is because i am smoking too much?
is that a bad sign?
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May 4th, 2007
01:36 am
best birth day of my whole life
bradley and jack made my whole day
too bad my so called bff since third grade
was a bitch to me all day
thank you
im done trying to be your friend
FUCK BITCHEZZ
GETT MONEY
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April 30th, 2007
08:20 pm - PROM!
my was perfect
soo glad i met bradley berchbach
( PROM '07 )
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April 24th, 2007
08:51 pm
I never realized how much I miss the past until now.
I mean don't get me wrong,
right now life isn't as bad as it usually seems to be.
I have a wonderful boyfriend
and Jacky, Kelsey, Mallory, and occasionally Ashley
but I miss those lazy summer days.
I miss JACKS but hell that wont happen again.
no one really wants to make an effort to see each other anymore.
I miss Clare when she actually felt like being a friend
and talking to her about anything and getting make overs at K-mart.
I miss being best friends with Ashley Good.
I miss Corin Cassa and Timothy Peruzzi.
I miss Dani and Bob
I miss Brandon.
I miss a hell of a lot.
I guess we all just grew up.
I would kill to go back in time just so I could get that same feeling of happiness.
I never used to be so paranoid.
I get panic attacks almost everyday.
My therapist asked me what I am constantly worried about
and I realized I am terrified of growing up.
I am terrified of being alone.
I am going to be a senior next year.
Which means I have about roughly 2 years to grow up.
Most of my friends are really intelligent.
Their all going to go to college far away.
And, I just be here in Lake Orion, with no-one.
Jacky was in Arizona for 10 days.
I can't live without my best friend, I really truly cannot.
But, I can't rely on Jacky to stay here and take care of me.
I need to become more independent.
Hopefully, the upcoming summer will help me put away these thoughts for awhile.
Just So I can have some fun.
In fact, I hope I don't even remember half of the summer.
(i want back summer 2005 please)
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